Hi, My Name is Amy and I’m a Fatty47 lbs LOSTso farDecember 11, 2007 by Amy | 9 comments
I am sure I wasn’t always like this. It’s weird because now that I look back, I don’t really know when I let myself go. It was probably back in middle school or the beginning of high school. I didn’t really care about what I ate or what I drank. Chips, soda, candy… I didn’t work out. I didn’t play sports. I had a job, but I didn’t really move around at my job.
It wasn’t until just a few months ago that I started realizing that my weight was a problem. I had to buy clothes in sizes I never thought I would need, I started hating the way I looked in the mirror. My mom nags me all the time about how I am fat. She will tell me to my face. At first it hurt. But then I thought of what she was saying and I AM fat! I am a fatty! I know she was probably saying it for my health. I am not the healthiest person in the world and I noticed that as I thought about it.
At 23 and five feet I am what people would call a bit chunky. I am not ugly and I can usually hide the weight under my clothes, but it still gets to me. I KNOW how I look in the mirror. I see how the clothes hug to my body… to my fat. Sometimes I don’t even know why I have a boyfriend, or what he sees in me. While he is in shape and he has the ideal body for his height, I don’t. Boys have never called me hot or sexy, I have always been cute. I have never been slim or sporty, just chunky.
I hate these words. I have to do something about the fat that has made itself so comfortable on my body. I thought about it and decided to go on a diet. Mind you, I have been on several diets before and failed, because I gave in. I always give in. For some reason the cause was never as great or as severe back then. But now its big, now I HAVE to do something about it. I am going to diet, and I am going to stick to it, and I will eat healthy, and I will work out.
I have to do these things for myself. To see a smaller, better me. I have been on my diet since Monday December 3, 2007. I lost 3 pounds last week and I am sticking to this diet, it is the last thing I do. Maybe one day when I work up the courage to put up my before pictures like Fat Man I will be able to look back at the old me.
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Welcome Amii, let’s get this done…
I hear ya. I think you have to hit the point where you’re sick of it to do something about it. I got fat before, then I lost 50 pounds, now I’ve gained that back plus some. I’m making a little progress now, but I’m still not working hard enough yet. I don’t have that passion yet, but I’m getting closer. Good luck on your journey.
Awwww… thanks! I am very determined and I really want to do this for me and my health.
Best on luck in your quest! I just wanted to point out that you should be happy for having a boyfriend and someone to share you moments with. I know a lot of good-looking people with great bodies that are just alone; we end up drowning our solitude at night and move on. Take advantae of this support system that you have and go for it.
Cheers.
I would love to lost a few pounds too. I need to lose about 50 pounds to get to my ideal weight. I wish I have vey much enthusiasm..
It’s great to see that you’re motivated. I wanted to loose a few extra pounds for years, but I never actually did it until I decided enough was enough, and I wanted to lose the extra weight no matter what. I think finding the right motivation is the key.
What was final straw? What moment made you say enough is enough?
I think mindsets are key. They either keep you going or defeat you. I like how Michael Gerber explains - The Fat Guy and The Skinny Guy personalities.
A friend of mine who successfully meets his weight goals uses a different strategy. He doesn’t fight his weight gain. He does periodic “tune ups.” He drops weight 2-3 times per year, by design. He’s mastered a technique where he can drop 30-40 lbs in ~month.
What I like about his approach is it avoids the all-or-nothing trap. He’s done this for several years, so it’s a system that works for him. To each his own.
Good luck fat man.