I’m Afraid of Being Under 300 Lbs.
I have come to the conclusion that I may be subconsciously afraid of weighing under 300 lbs. It’s been a while since I weighed under that elusive number. I have actually lost track of how long it’s been, but I know it’s been a long time. I started realizing this yesterday when I sat down to think of why I was being so horrible with my exercise routine and eating habits over the last few days. It hit me when I remembered that I always have disastrous relapses when I am doing extremely well.
It’s as if something triggers inside of me when I do well and tells me to screw up. It always happens. I can usually get past it and get back on track, but this time it’s been hard. Really hard. I haven’t been as close to 300 lbs as I am now, so maybe that’s the why it’s been so tough to overcome.
I feel kind of embarrassed and ashamed of what’s happened. I feel like a big fat whiner. Metaphorically crying over being fat and weak. But I guess that’s why I have this blog. It’s my tool, my way of coping with all of this. Before this I wouldn’t have had any way to express myself, but now I can. Right?
Realizing all this, I think that I can now move on. I plan on exercising first thing in the morning. No excuses. As soon as I wake up I’m heading to The Shack for an early morning workout. I feel like I had a “Eureka” moment.
I think my subconscious can actually cope with being under 300 lbs now. At least I hope it can, because I am ready to break that milestone.
What did you do of my suggestion? I suggested that you make a weekly plan for your workout and nutrition. Of course you think you don’t need it, you know what you have to do and what you need to eat. OK so if you know it, it’ll be a breeze to write it down for the week ahead, won’t it? So do it. You just need one or two week of planning and you’ll be back on track! Maybe you’re afraid of being back on track..
I dont write down what I eat, never will. What I eat is simple and I wont be referring to it.
Why won’t you ever refer to what you eat?
You don’t write don’t what you eat, but do you know the proportions of nutriments you’re getting in?
Can you say what pourcentage of portein, carbs and fat are you getting?
I don’t see why you have a fixation on never writting down what you eat or plan in advance, if you could explain it in a new post it would be cool.
Nevertheless my recommandation works as well for workouts, but are you going to tell me that you never plan in advance your workouts and never will? How open minded is that?
Damn James, you sound like a drill instructor. I will take you up on that and write a post about it. Coming later today.
That was the goal as well, to make you articulate why, cool so you had no problem finding what to write next 🙂
LOL. Yeh, thanks.
I had that problem with the 200’s. I have had it with every mini goal that I set. But I did manage to get under the line and stay down and now I am at 169. It’s possible and the key is seeing that you are mentally setting yourself up for defeat and saying, “Hey! I am not going to do that to myself!” Remember, it’s just a number and frankly, it’s your number. You can do it!
Yeh, I am hopefully on my way to being past that.
I wouldn’t say I’m scared of getting under 200. I am so anticipating it that it beats me up everyday. Stay with it, you’re doing great!
Thats true of me too.
Its a slow process. One that requires alot of dedication and determination. But you know that already according to your weight in Jan. There will be good days and there will be bad days. As long as the good out weigh the bad and you jump back on the horse after those bad days you will succeed!
THANKS for those words.
Just continue to enjoy the process, not beating yourself up for not being “perfect”. You are not a robot (even robots break down). The fact that you are committed to getting in top health is worthy of celebration!!! As you learn to recondition your mind in regards to what you eat, “know” that results will come and that you are always in control (even if you “slip”)!! Know that you have people rooting for you!!!!
Thanks man. It’s much appreciated.
Being happy in life is the key virtue. Stay close to your friends and family who influence you frequently. Try sticking to a strict diet and see how that comes along. Also, spend around 20 minutes a day in the gym. With a healthy diet and exercising, results should show in no time.
Thanks, I will try that.
WOW. I’m glad I’m not the only one who thinks about this kind of thing. I guess I should give you a “head’s-up” that this will be one of the things I’ll be covering in “the series.” And it will be coming from somebody who hasn’t seen the low end of 300 (or his toes) in…well, QUITE a while…
I’m glad to say that I broke the 300 plateau!
I no all about the 300lb mark….i had the same issue. it started in when i was a little girl and said i would kill myself when i hit 300lbs (becasue that was the highest the doctors scale went). In 7th grade, i went over and so began the story with that number.
Today I don’t even know if or how far i am under the 300lb mark, becasue i have decided to forget about numbers all together. I have stopped waying myself, decided to love myself as is and embrace a healthy lifestyle becasue i love my body. I am enjoying healthy foods and exersizing (CrossFit!) in the moment. Check out my blog…
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