Reminiscing with Fat Pictures from 2005
I was cleaning up the computer in my garage when I came across some pictures I took back in January of 2005. I remember this day vividly. It was a few days after my birthday and I had decided to end the self hatred and fattening of my life and body. I told myself that I would get into shape and had my wife take the pictures in our cramped up apartment in NYC. At the time I was about 260 lbs and was working out off and on, more off than on. I was out of control with my eating habits and felt crappy most of the time, depressed even. You can tell from the look on my face that I wasn’t happy with myself. I dreaded taking these photos.
Shortly after taking the photos I was 100% disgusted with my body. I felt like a complete failure for letting my self go so badly. I figured I would try my best to get back into shape and lose the fat, but as we can all tell by now, I failed. That was two years ago and I managed to get even worse. I ballooned up to 350 lbs. That’s 90 lbs gained! Ouch. Back then I had no stretch marks and was only 40 lbs away from a decent body. To date I have lost 40 lbs, but am still an eternity away from getting anything close to a decent body.
Now that I look at the pictures, I didn’t look that bad (that’s comparing myself to what I look like now). I was fat and out of shape but it wasn’t so out of reach like it feels now. What I would give to look like that again. But anyway, I plan on continuing my weight loss journey and maybe in a few months I can post some pictures that look like the above “before” shots at 260 lbs or so.